They called me Monday. I didn't answer, so they just left a message saying that if I didn't call back, before 5:00pm that day, I would have to call Wednesday...I didn't get the message until two hours after five...it really sucked having to wait those two days.

They should have just waited until Wednesday to tell me to call. I felt like pulling my hair out the entire time and, on top of that, I was pissed-off because they didn't call my cellphone. They called my house and my mom got the message after getting home from work.

I called them at 9:30 Wednesday morning. Technically, I was supposed to be in class, but I left early to work on my stuff later. I had to hear what they were going to say.

They didn't answer. I had to leave a message on a machine and I called like seven or eight times after that.

I didn't get any word back until 12:15...And what did they have to say to me? "Your test came back with adnormal cells."

Fuck. Life is unfair.

This coming Wednesday I get to get more test done. Only these are going to be a bit more painful. Yippee. I might have cancer.

I don't think I really have it though. The type of cancer the doctor said I might have doesn't run in either side of my family. Plus, these kind of test results happen sometimes and it is usually something else, like a virus. So, no worries.

It is really weird to be in my shoes right now. It feels as if someone on a soap opera should be wearing them right now. It is like I'm in the twilight zone though. It feels unreal. My mom was talking to me earlier today and she told me that at first she was upset and cried, but she told me, "If you do have cancer we'll fight through it."

I'm 20 years old and my mother is telling me all this. It is weird.

It is a really weird thing, the cancer. The cancer is just really weird.

Do you remember how I said I needed my dad to fix my car before I went to Monticello???

Well, haha on me because I didn't get it done. I thought I could do it later...I bet you can guess what happened...

I went to deliever my artwork at the university open gallery and then I hungout with my boyfriend and ate lunch with him...I decided it would be a good idea to drive to my home and pic up my G-card that I had left at home (its a card I need to eat at college)...well, I drove home and noticed my car's temperature was going up and up and up and wouldn't come back down...it was in the red at 250 degrees (that isn't good)....So I decided just to park it and stay home until my dad can look at it...I missed my 2:00 class and I'm praying to God that he gets here before 3:00, so I can make it to my 3:30 class...

Stupid car. She hates me sometimes, I swear. I call her Beatrice which is a French name that means, "bringer of joy". Yes, she does bring great joy to my life, but she is french and is sometimes a real bitch...maybe its PMS??? Who knows?

Okay, I was planning on going to Monticello this weekend, but now I can't go. I have to reschedule for most likey next week or the week after. Makes me sad that I can't come right now.

Money is the real issue, but there are a few underlying things as well...

I need my dad to check my car because I think it needs more anti-freeze and it needs an oil-change too.

Plus, Ashley was supposed to ride back with me so she can fly back to Iowa, but she's staying an extra week with her family. Her mother is going through kimo treatment and she wants to be there for support. I told her I didn't mind waiting a little longer to come down there (Her aunt could come get her next week if I can't come down there then).

Now next week I don't know if I can come or not. I'd have to cancel on going to Chicago with the art organization at Georgetown. We were going to visit a few musuems and we were going camping on our way up there. It would be a lot of fun, but I'm not sure if I want to go or not. Like I said, money is an issue right now and I might not be able to afford both the Monticello and Chicago trips. And I'd rather go to Monticello and see the friends I love than take a trip to a place that I've already visited.

So, next week will probably be better for me. I hope everyone doesn't mind.

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Okay, just thought I would share that and tell everyone I will be in Monticello March 28th-30th. I plan to stay over at COdy's house on Saturday, so be ready for a party! (If that is okay with you cody...I forgot ot s\ask you about it earlier.)

And my birthday is Friday I plan to see the movie Shutter and eat at my favorite Japanese Restaurant for some amazing sushi!!!

So, I've been thinking about taking a trip back to my old hometown! I want to see everyone agian, so hopefully everyone can pencil me into their schedule. I'm probably going to come two weekends from now (remember that so we can have a party!).

So, Cody, Kim, Dani, Sam, Tabi, Erin, Allison and everyone try to get back to me as soon as you can so we can all hangout.