So, my birthday isn't until march but I've been trying to think of the most awesome birthday party ever....I'm going to have a silly hat party! I think I'm going to rent out a cheap building somewhere in Lexington and all my friends can come. That would be amazing! WOOT!

I stole this from :Jakumetsu:
Its a survey comparing who I was two years ago, to who I am today.

Two years ago as of today….

How old were you? 17
Where did you go to school?: Wayne County High School
Where did you work?: Nope didn't work then....I was lazy
Where did you live?: In a house in Bronston right across the Wayne County line
Where did you hang out?: In the Somerset Mall or at friend's houses
How was your hair style?: Kinda long, I did at one point cut bangs for myself.
Did you wear glasses?: Nope contacts.
Who was your regular-person crush?: hmm...I had a few back then, Tyler Choate, Isaac Neal, and Ryan Morrow
How many tattoos did you have?: None
How many piercings did you have? four, they were all in my ears.
What car did you drive? Didn't drive yet, I didn't have a car.
What was your worst fear?: Heights and rednecks with knives....it was wayne county for god sakes! It was like the movie deliverance everywhere you turned! LoL
You been arrested? Nope
Had your heart broken?: Yep, but only once during that year by Tyler...bad times.
Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter?: hmm, two years ago I was mostly single except for the random people I dated for short periods of time.


**HA HA HA!!! LETS SEE WHAT YOU ARE NOW !!!!!**

How old are you? 19
Where do you work?: I don't work right now, but in October I worked at Keenland for the fall races.
Where do you go to school?:Georgetown College
Where do you live?: On campus and at my parents house in Lexington Kentucky
Where do you hang out?: On campus and at Fayette Mall
Do you wear glasses?: Nope, still contacts.
What is your hairstyle?: Its kinda long now, but I don't have bangs and I need to get a haircut. LoL
Still talk to any of your old friends?: Yep, a few of them...haha, I actually still talk to Tyler. We're good friends now.
Who is your current interest?: My boyfriend David, he's awsome!
How many piercings?: only two, I let the other ones grow over because I didn't like them anymore.
How many tattoos?: Still none, but I am thinking about getting one. It should be on an adventure! A professor of mine knows a woman in Italy who does the kind of tattoo-ing I want. But since I might be going to Japan this summer, I might try to find an artist there to do some traditional japanese work. (Although, most likely I won't get one in japan, I like to do research before to see if everything is sanitary...I'm afraid of SUPER AIDS!!! LoL)
What kind of car do you have?: 1989 White Camero, kickin it old school!!!
What is your biggest fear?: Not getting good grades in college and not being able to travel everywhere I want to go. (I concored the heights things! LoL)
Has your heart been broken?: Two years ago, yes, but now, no...I hope to keep it that way.
Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter: I'm taken at the moment. I'm actually in the longest relationship I've ever been in and things are going really great! Woot woot!

Sorry, I've been away for so long. Its hard to find time when you're in college....I need to save up for a laptop. Then life would be much more simple.

O, well, so tell me how you've been lately???

I hurt his feelings. I feel really horrible for doing that too.

I didn't really mean to, I just decided not to wait for him anymore. He acted all hot and cold all the time. Like he liked me one minute and then he didn't the next. I was going insane. So I got myself a nice guy to be my boyfriend instead of him.

I have to admit, a long time ago, I wanted nothing more than to prance around with a boy toy to see if he would feel any pain. The thought of using someone else made me sick, so I didn't even try it. Plus, I seriously didn't think he would care if I had a boyfriend. He even said he didn't want a relationship with anyone...so why does he act so hurt? He won't even hangout with me before we go to college. I asked him if he wanted to and he didn't even answer the question, he just went on to talk about something else. What the fuck? I waited so long for him to tell me his feelings and when I asked he never answered. I waited for over a fucking year! He has no right to be upset with me just because I decided to move on and date someone else.

I am so angry because he is acting this way. And I seriously am hurt. I don't know, its like he's the only person that can make me feel so horribly hurt that it actually causes physical pain. And right now, I feel like my whole chest is about the cave in on itself.

It sucks.

I think if I could completely move on, I won't have to feel this way anymore. Its like one minute you're the happiest you've ever been and the next you feel like you're dying. There is no middle ground, just high and low. And after so long you don't know whether you should be happy when you're happy. You have to spend that time preparing yourself for the low thats ahead. THAT IS NO WAY TO LIVE!

So, I decided to move away from that. And I'm almost completely over him.

I am so happy being with my boyfriend, I feel like I can be happy when I'm happy and if I ever feel bad I don't have to worry about dying.

I couldn't wait forever. I wasn't going to. It was killing me and to die/wait for someone who couldn't make up their own mind would be a waste of time.

Alrighty, I'm feeling a lot better today. Yep, I'm a happy camper here in the forest of life...it took a little help from a few of my friends and a huge thunderstorm (literally there was a lot of percipitation), but its all good. So, thank you kindly for understanding. Especially you Amanda and Jon-Jon and David and...David (not from UK, the other one. LoL)

Note to Self:...I should really stop using vulgar language when I'm upset; especially when I'm around small children...*sigh* Thats going to be a tuff one, a problem that may never change. LoL